A new beginning

As I sit here wide awake thinking about the last 24 hours. I can’t help but focus on the massive change in my homes atmosphere. My home almost feels empty even though my 2 children and myself are still here. His presence overtook the home. He had us all walking on eggshells and vibrating in stress and anxiety. Without him here and the 3 of us being able to relax and feel safe it has made the house feel empty. All the suffocating angry energy left with him and we can finally breathe. I can’t believe how quiet the house feels how calm it feels. Yes I know that I still double locked the door and keep checking all night but I believe that will pass. The weight of worry and stress that has dropped off my back makes me feel 300lbs lighter. I am finally excited for the mornings and for evenings spent playing with my kids. Evenings full of love laughter and happiness. Evenings that I don’t have to shush the kids and worry if their playing will get you angry. I know we have a long road ahead but it is going to be a bright and beautiful journey.